C. S. Lewis, A Grief Observed, Reading (2)

Her absence is no more emphatic in those places than anywhere else. It’s not local at all.

-no more ~ than 구문

-it’s not local at all: 전혀 지역적인 것이 아니었다. 즉 지역, 장소와 전혀 상관없는 것이었다.

 

I suppose that if one were forbidden all salt one wouldn’t notice it much more in any one food than in another. Eating in general would be different, every day, at every meal. It is like that. The act of living is different all through. Her absence is like the sky, spread over everything. 

-if 가정법

 

One never gets the total impact of what we call ‘the thing itself.’ But we call it wrongly. The thing itself is simply all these ups and downs: the rest is a name or an idea. 

 

When I speak of fear, I mean the merely animal fear, the recoil of the organism from its destruction; the smothery feeling’ the sense of being a rat in a trap.

-smothery: 숨막히는, 질식시키는

 

The mind can sympathize; the body, less. 

-정신은 공감할 수 있다; 육체는, 그보다 덜하다.

 

The end of hers[her miseries] would be the coming-of-age of mine[my miseries].

-그녀의 불행의 끝은 곧 나의 불행이 무르익는 때일 것이다. (나의 불행이 ‘성년이 되는 것’)

 

And this separation, I suppose, waits for all.

-이런 분리(헤어짐)은, 내 생각에, 모두를 기다린다.(모든 인간을 기다린다=모두에게 해당된다)

 

Of course she didn’t know, any more than I do.

-not – any more than 구문

 

She used to quote ‘Alone into the Alone.’ She said it felt like that. And how immensely improbable that it should be otherwise!

-improbable: unlikely

-다른 식으로는 얼마나 그럴것 같지 않은가! (=다른 식으로는 도무지 그럴법하지 않다=그렇지 않다기 어렵다)

 

But then, what conceivable point could there be in severing the old ones?

-conceivable: possible, imaginable 

-과거의 수단들을 절단하는 데에 어떤 중요(가능한, 생각가능한)한 포인트가 있겠는가? ->그런 건 없다.

 

Is God a clown who whips away your bowl of soup one moment in order, next moment, to replace it with another bowl of the same soup? Even nature isn’t such a clown as that. She never plays exactly the same tune twice. 

-whip away: 쓱 집어치우다

 

And whatever happens has consequences, and it and they are irrevocable and irreversible. 

-it: whatever happens. 즉 일어난 일

-they: consequences. 그 결과.

 

She died. She is dead. Is the word so difficult to learn?

-die, dead.

-이 말이(이 단어가) 그렇게 알아듣기 어려운가?

 

All the impressions crowd into our memory together and cancel out into a mere blur.

-crowd into: 몰려들어오다